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Correspondence between two men who fell in love then fell apart

March 2020

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Subject: The end of civilisation changes things
From: BRIT
Date: Wed, 18 Mar 2020 17:22:30 +0000
To: YANK

OK, that was hyperbole, but the world is going to go through a crap time and while I think the likelihood of anything directly happening to either of us is low, I do think there will be more risk in general. And I would be sad if our last conversation really was our last conversation.

I'm likely to be physically OK, but have a financial concern as I'm working my notice period and meant to be starting a new job; I don't know if all of this changes things, hopefully not.

Main worries are for my family and friends, many of whom are not in as privileged position as me (working from home), and are likely to suffer directly due to being exposed to the public or the oncoming recession. I have reached out to an elderly couple on this terrace to offer help as well. My older brother sent my mother to Sri Lanka, as he believes the virus won't survive long at the current temperatures there. My father is very unwell and getting this virus would finish him, and while I have many mixed feelings about him, I don't want that.

I hope you and your close friends will be OK. It's going to be horrible, but I hope you all come through it relatively unscathed.

BRIT

That was 2 days before my birthday.

Subject: Re: The end of civilisation changes things
From: YANK
Date: Thu, 19 Mar 2020 13:13:54 -0600
To: BRIT

Brit,

Did you unintentionally send me this email?

--Yank
Subject: Re: The end of civilisation changes things
From: BRIT
Date: Thu, 19 Mar 2020 19:33:09 +0000
To: YANK

No, I wanted to send you a message. It was more free association than anything. These are scary times and I wanted to reach out to you earlier, because things are different.

I'm sorry if it was bad to do so.
Subject: Re: The end of civilisation changes things
From: YANK
Date: Thu, 19 Mar 2020 14:52:45 -0600
To: BRIT

Brit,

Not bad. Just contrary to your position 8 months ago.

If you would like a new conversation I can listen to what's on your mind.

--Yank
Subject: Re: The end of civilisation changes things
From: BRIT
Date: Thu, 19 Mar 2020 23:56:51 +0000
To: YANK

I know. 8 months ago, I didn't imagine this world.

There was not really have a specific thing I wanted to talk about or say, sorry. Just concern about both of us getting to that year point made me want to reach out.

I'm glad you are responding at all.

Brit
Subject: Re: The end of civilisation changes things
From: YANK
Date: Thu, 19 Mar 2020 18:45:46 -0600
To: BRIT

Brit,

I thought you were blowing me off when you said "I need a year". Psychologists teach their clients to say that because almost always the person they say it to gives up long before a year.

OK, so, we're approaching 14-July-2020 15:35 GMT. How have the past months changed you such that you would contact me? You and I are as mortal as we ever were, how does the pandemic change your feelings?

I do appreciate you reaching out to me, Brit. I'm pleased you told me what's up with your neighborhood, your family, and your job. Your concern for me and my close friends is touching.

Perhaps a phone call could be productive. I still have cheap international calling on my land line. My phone numbers are still the same.

--Yank
Subject: Re: The end of civilisation changes things
From: BRIT
Date: Fri, 20 Mar 2020 09:14:58 +0000
To: YANK

Could you give me a call at an appropriate time for you? My numbers are the same.

That was my birthday.

Subject: Re: The end of civilisation changes things
From: YANK
Date: Fri, 20 Mar 2020 07:52:58 -0600
To: BRIT

Brit,

Yes, I'll call you at [Redacted] later today. Just getting up and brewing coffee.

--Yank

I reminded the Brit that in our last conversation he said, "Our relation really didn't have much going for it. We had a few good spots, I suppose. I just want to move on and let the memories fade. I want no contact with you. I don't want to hear from you again."

He'd have to explain how he went from that attitude to actually emailing me.

"I've been thinking about a lot of people," he said.

He bragged that a lot of men are envious of how many boyfriends he's had. I chose not to ask if he told those envious men how many of those boyfriends he dumped and why.

I told him the arthritis I developed after October 2018's fall has had me in chronic pain for over a year and that it changes a person.

The Brit said it was probably best to say goodbye at that time. I told him I still hurt from how he treated me and that he should share our correspondence with someone, perhaps a friend or counselor, to see how he felt when someone else learned, in the Brit's own words, how he behaved.

He said "This was a mistake," then goodbye.

I bought a domain name and signed up for web hosting.

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