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Correspondence between two men who fell in love then fell apart

July 2018

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Subject: Geeks, MOPs and sociopaths
From: BRIT
Date: Tue, 3 Jul 2018 12:13:32 +0100
To: YANK

https://meaningness.com/geeks-mops-sociopaths

This crystallised some thoughts I have been chewing over recently. I suspect it's something you have watched happen a few times actually. It's a shame human nature plays out in this manner, over and over.
Subject: Re: Geeks, MOPs and sociopaths
From: YANK
Date: Tue, 03 Jul 2018 07:16:23 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Oh yes, I've seen subcultures come and go, thrive and get co-opted, and get infuriatingly misappropriated by children who have no idea where the subculture came from.

Two questions I need you to answer: Is David Chapman an American, and how old is he? His name is so common a web search is almost useless.

The most significant phenomenon in American subcultures happened when cable TV fully spanned the country. Suddenly there were no subcultures, only marketing demographics. The "Sameing of America" happened, everyone everywhere could be shown the same TV shows and the same commercials and eat at the same fast food joints and learn about the same fads at the same time. The internet and them smartphones were the final coffin nails.

Cable TV became fully trans-American in 1983. To understand David Chapman's perspective it matters a great deal how old he was, if he was even born yet, in 1983.

Also, Chapman refers to Nihilism, which I always thought was a dilettante joke Nietzsche came up with to keep his patron paying for his self-important unemployed lifestyle.

--Yank
Subject: Re: Geeks, MOPs and sociopaths
From: BRIT
Date: Tue, 03 Jul 2018 23:46:41 +0100
To: YANK

I don't know the guy, just was linked to that one article which I found interesting. His whole site is one hypertext book - I kind of want to read it but fear it might be one of those traps to send me crazy.

It links to his Twitter account - https://twitter.com/Meaningness

He studied at MIT and talks about studying "math" (not "maths" so he seems likely to be American. He looks middle aged, or he has had a hard life. Or very funny. But as a character says in a Victoria Wood sketch "Nothing's that funny".

If he is serious in this post https://twitter.com/Meaningness/status/1010680592839503872 then he was probably born in the 70s at the earliest.

I'm dipping my toe into the kinky world now (outside of hypnosis) and am coming across 20 year olds who seem to have been at it longer than I. The internet enables connections so secret societies have to be so much more secret now. It's a shame old things have been lost; hopefully the new enablement makes up for it in a different way.

Brit
Subject: Re: May I get something delivered to your home?
From: BRIT
Date: Thu, 5 Jul 2018 12:10:15 +0100
To: YANK

It is on its way now, has your name on it. Thanks again.
Subject: Your hypnosis cards arrived today
From: YANK
Date: Sat, 07 Jul 2018 18:33:50 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Your deck of hypnosis cards arrived today. I'll store them somewhere the cats can't get to, those little imps.

--Yank
Subject: Re: Your hypnosis cards arrived today
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 8 Jul 2018 05:38:21 +0100
To: YANK

Hooray!

And yes, cats are effective enough manipulators without giving them training ...

Brit
Subject: Donald Trump has been scared away from London by a big balloon
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 8 Jul 2018 06:42:22 +0100
To: YANK

Donald Trump has been scared away from London by a big balloon

https://www.independent.co.uk/voices/trump-blimp-protest-london-visit-queen-a8436006.html

I don't know how aware you are of our preparations for the great Cheeto-in-chief. I had been a little sad to be away when he was in the UK as I wanted to join the protests, but it turns out that the coward is hiding from the public anyway. I do wonder what doublethink is going on in his head to justify this.
Subject: Re: Donald Trump has been scared away from London by a big balloon
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 08 Jul 2018 13:08:57 -0700
To: BRIT

Hilarious! I'll see if the "Naked Trump" statue is still in [Redacted] for your visit.

https://www.ktnv.com/news/national/ghost-adventures-host-zak-bagans-buys-naked-trump-statue -for-28000

Aaah... It looks like Naked Trump is at The Haunted Museum, easy to get to from my apartment. The admission to the museum is rather high but might be macabre fun.

--Yank
Subject: Re: Donald Trump has been scared away from London by a big balloon
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 08 Jul 2018 22:55:36 +0100
To: YANK

It sounds delightfully terrible!
Subject: MP3s to increase susceptibility to hypnosis
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 08 Jul 2018 18:56:39 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

From now until you arrive I'll be listening once or twice a day to MP3s to increase my susceptibility to hypnosis.

One is a subliminal, nature sounds with a quiet voice track in the background. The other is a voice-only induction by Evil Mind Warp Guy (WarpMyMind.com) with suggestions to become highly susceptible to going under and absorbing suggestions.

Do you have any such recordings you like that you want me to listen to? Have you made any susceptibility recordings?

Thanks,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: MP3s to increase susceptibility to hypnosis
From: BRIT
Date: Mon, 9 Jul 2018 05:21:43 +0100
To: YANK

I neither have made any nor have specific recommendations. My general advice to be people is to just practice going under, which you will be doing.

I know from your previous experience that you can go under quickly with the shock inductions, and deep enough to black out. Between that skill you already have and me being around, I think you will get plenty of practice :)

Brit
Subject: Lonsdale sizing
From: BRIT
Date: Mon, 9 Jul 2018 11:36:06 +0100
To: YANK

I'll actually be over by a place stocking some Lonsdale bits later today (about 4.30pm my time, 5 hours from now) so feel free to take a look at https://www.lonsdale.com/ and suggest anything that catches your eye! Size would be most useful too :)

Brit
Subject: Re: Lonsdale sizing
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 09 Jul 2018 06:40:47 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I'm shocked. The bodybuilder posing trunks and Speedo-style workout briefs Lonsdale sold in the 1980's are no longer available. I offer them brand loyalty and they offer me contemporary "normcore" styles.

I hope this isn't an emerging trend in retail.

How about a pair of black briefs? Always in style. https://www.lonsdale.com/lonsdale-2pk-brief-mens-421069?colcode=42106903

Or a boxing glove key chain? https://www.lonsdale.com/lonsdale-2pk-brief-mens-421069?colcode=42106903

Hugs,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: MP3s to increase susceptibility to hypnosis
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 09 Jul 2018 06:44:08 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I find the susceptibility MP3's have been helpful. After listening to the spoken induction with suggestions, I can remember much of the induction but not the susceptibility suggestions. Don't worry, after downloading it I skimmed through the recording to be sure there was nothing nefarious lurking in there.

Hugs,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: Lonsdale sizing
From: BRIT
Date: Mon, 9 Jul 2018 15:12:42 +0100
To: YANK

That should be fine, I'll head over in a bit. I need a size though!
Subject: Re: Lonsdale sizing
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 09 Jul 2018 07:18:21 -0700
To: BRIT

Ah! My mistake.

LARGE please.

--GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: MP3s to increase susceptibility to hypnosis
From: BRIT
Date: Tue, 10 Jul 2018 10:14:29 +0100
To: YANK

I'm glad you're practicing safer hypnosis!
Subject: Re: MP3s to increase susceptibility to hypnosis
From: YANK
Date: Tue, 10 Jul 2018 09:35:37 -0700
To: BRIT

Only with strangers, With you I'm counting on intense full-contact surprises, nonconsensual ambushes, and some public showing off.

GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: MP3s to increase susceptibility to hypnosis
From: BRIT
Date: Tue, 10 Jul 2018 17:39:25 +0100
To: YANK

The first two, of course. Be good to scope out what's on and off the table for public things though :)
Subject: Re: MP3s to increase susceptibility to hypnosis
From: YANK
Date: Tue, 10 Jul 2018 09:54:43 -0700
To: BRIT

Since I'm the one with impulse control issues I'll leave it up to you to decide what would be appropriate in public. Your limits are probably more realistic than mine.

ook ook, GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: MP3s to increase susceptibility to hypnosis
From: BRIT
Date: Tue, 10 Jul 2018 17:57:11 +0100
To: YANK

OK. This will be fun ;)
Subject: Re: MP3s to increase susceptibility to hypnosis
From: YANK
Date: Tue, 10 Jul 2018 10:16:24 -0700
To: BRIT

That's odd, I can't seem to find an emoji of a gorilla spontaneously ejaculating in his posing trunks when a tall swarthy hypnotist blows cigar smoke at him. I'll have to talk to the Unicode Consortium about this oversight.

GRUNTOR
Subject: Photos of your latest hypnosis playmate
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 11 Jul 2018 07:44:42 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I found a couple photos of your latest hypnosis playmate. Excellent timing, you caught him just as he dropped into trance and your control.

GRUNTOR




Subject: Thursday 19-Jul-2018 is "Underwear Night" at Badlands Saloon
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 11 Jul 2018 08:57:00 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

If you feel up to it when you arrive in [Redacted], that Thursday night is "Underwear Night" at Badlands Saloon. I enjoy stomping around a bar in boots and a brief, so if you think it may be a good place to test the waters for in-public hypnosis, count me in.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: Thursday 19-Jul-2018 is "Underwear Night" at Badlands Saloon
From: BRIT
Date: Wed, 11 Jul 2018 20:52:50 -0500
To: YANK

While I would love to see you in that undress I couldn't do it myself sorry - my training fell apart these last few months and I'm a disheveled lump right now :(
Subject: Re: Photos of your latest hypnosis playmate
From: BRIT
Date: Wed, 11 Jul 2018 20:57:05 -0500
To: YANK

Well there's some inspiration for tonight ...
Subject: At the hotel!
From: BRIT
Date: Wed, 11 Jul 2018 21:02:24 -0500
To: YANK

Thank you for your text message! I'm going to avoid using my actual phone package if possible as the charges are unfun in the USA and I'm likely to blow my limit immediately. But hotel WiFi is free so hooray to email etc!

I'm going to venture into Chicago tomorrow and find myself a pay as you go SIM if possible. I brought back the one you gave me on my last visit, but it seemed to have expired - UK ones tend to after six months so not as a surprise. I'll send you the number of I manage it.

I had a bright idea about walking to the hotel. There are of course few pavements, pedestrian crossings, the trees are screaming and the air is bitey. Apart from that it went really well.

It's now 2AM UK time and I'm in a very weird place trying to stay up to adjust timezone but wanting to just zzzzzz (thud)
Subject: Re: At the hotel!
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 11 Jul 2018 20:59:22 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

T-Mobile has the best pay-as-you-go prepaid SIM plans. Avoid TracFone and Net-10.

Something else to consider: Some MVNO (reseller) brands like H2O Wireless offer a starter kit consisting of a SIM and a code for 30 days unlimited text, talk, and some international calling for just $35 at convenience stores like 7-Eleven. If you don't pay for a second month the service just expires.

Happy dialing,

GRUNTOR

Subject: Re: Thursday 19-Jul-2018 is "Underwear Night" at Badlands Saloon
From: BRIT
Date: Thu, 12 Jul 2018 01:20:45 -0500
To: YANK

You know something, maybe I need to do something I'm uncomfortable with.

There's a conversation to be had about how I got to this point where I almost stopped training and look this bad. But that's less useful than a kick up the arse to start again. Maybe I should go as I am and feel exposed etc. as motivation to get back to a good place.

Or looking at their site, I can pay $10 to not be undressed and still have you stomping about too, if I can't manage on the day.

We should go and have fun with your head. I'll manage to strip or pay extra, either works. Main thing is having fun after all.

Here's me right now (sigh). It has been a stressful year.

[Attachment redacted]

Subject: Re: Thursday 19-Jul-2018 is "Underwear Night" at Badlands Saloon
From: YANK
Date: Thu, 12 Jul 2018 09:08:27 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I can relate. Over the past 2 years I made major changes to my life, lifestyle, and career path and after achieving my goal of solvency I still live in a city I dislike with gyms I dislike working an IT job that I did all this to get out of forever.

So I feel rather lost and purposeless these days.

But I'll still pump up my cock freaky big, pull on a scandalously revealing brief, lace up my boots, chomp on an oversized cigar, and toss back some whiskey. Join me, won't you?

ook ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: Thursday 19-Jul-2018 is "Underwear Night" at Badlands Saloon
From: BRIT
Date: Thu, 12 Jul 2018 11:49:55 -0500
To: YANK

Definitely.

I realised after I said I wouldn't that I like you for making me open up. I'm here a few days. Let's do everything fun that fits in those days.

Brit
Subject: Re: Thursday 19-Jul-2018 is "Underwear Night" at Badlands Saloon
From: BRIT
Date: Thu, 12 Jul 2018 11:55:15 -0500
To: YANK

Here's where I was last year - nor massive or anything and definitely too fat but I certainly preferred that shape!
[Attachment redacted]

Subject: Re: Thursday 19-Jul-2018 is "Underwear Night" at Badlands Saloon
From: YANK
Date: Thu, 12 Jul 2018 10:10:14 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I'd do you.

In fact, I plan to.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: Thursday 19-Jul-2018 is "Underwear Night" at Badlands Saloon
From: BRIT
Date: Thu, 12 Jul 2018 12:13:30 -0500
To: YANK

Thanks, I needed that :) it should be obvious the reverse is true. I might even let you remember most of it!
Subject: Re: Thursday 19-Jul-2018 is "Underwear Night" at Badlands Saloon
From: YANK
Date: Thu, 12 Jul 2018 11:00:44 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Let me remember everything, especially the parts where flexing your muscles grew you into
Subject: Re: Thursday 19-Jul-2018 is "Underwear Night" at Badlands Saloon
From: YANK
Date: Thu, 12 Jul 2018 11:03:40 -0700
To: BRIT

Dammit, Gmail...

Brit,

Let me remember everything, especially the part when you muscled up to a 250 kilo strongman competitor.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Have fun at Entranced!
From: YANK
Date: Fri, 13 Jul 2018 06:28:43 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I hope you have a wonderful time at Entranced. Make some new friends, learn some new techniques, and practice practice practice until you're an unstoppable mind-bending beast.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Hope your first day at Entranced went well
From: YANK
Date: Fri, 13 Jul 2018 20:52:20 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Hopefully tonight you're in a private place with a quality man twisting his perceptions and guiding his behavior. Pics or it didn't happen!

Several emails ago you mentioned that you were exploring kink. I wrote a reply but accidentally deleted it instead of sending it. Please tell me more about your new interest in kink. What new things appeal to you? What do you hope to explore? Any fetishes that go along with those kinks?

Sleep well and have adventures.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR (former Mr. Boston Leather & IML competitor a century or so ago)
Subject: Re: Hope your first day at Entranced went well
From: BRIT
Date: Fri, 13 Jul 2018 23:24:13 -0500
To: YANK

I've had a great day but tonight I get to bed alone to wake up early for volunteering - I'm sharing a room anyway so escapades need scheduling!

I started looking at local kink things after our trip to NEEHU and tried both mixed munches (nice people but no playmates) and a gay kink social. The latter has been a slow burner but it got to the stage where I did a talk on hypnosis a month ago for them and had an evening of questions after. Along the way I have been adopted by a boot sub - I can't actually bring myself to polish my own shoes anymore! I've been hypnotising him and others, which has definitely become more exhibitionistic - I'm comfortable putting guys under in kink friendly bars now, and have even been tranced in one myself. Something that was very hidden is getting more and more public.

I still have an interest in rope but I suspect I'll only ever do simple ties as I don't practice enough for it to feel completely free and easy when I use it.

Leather is something I may look into ... I have this vague notion of being a pervy leather daddy bear with a corner of the bar people are scared to go to by the time I'm 50 :D

Rubber still is my preference, even though it is most unflattering! The texture, smell, taste all push some notions of transformation in my head.

There is some power exchange stuff starting too ... it hadn't been of interest to me for a long time as I had seen it so often coming from a place of insecurity. Control for its own sake isn't much to me, but I do find I enjoy denial.

I don't really know where any of it is going. Should be fun finding out.

I think something has reset regarding weight training too. It has slowly wound down for me over months. I do think this holiday will be a personal reboot. One thing I want to do with you is just have you describe your feelings towards muscle when I'm in a suggestible state. We talked a ritual before ... perhaps then or some other time when we're playing with your hallucinations regarding growth etc.

I have a fantasy that wouldn't happen this holiday but maybe in the future of you getting to create for me a holiday personality in the way you did Brick for yourself. It's something I do to one level already - I'm a lot more forthcoming at these cons than I am normally. But I'm getting better as a subject and that kind of aspect intrigues me.

This holiday though, Brit is going to be doing things to you ;) I'm wondering quite how gorilla you can get away with going in public ...

Brit
Subject: Re: Hope your first day at Entranced went well - VERY VERY LONG REPLY,
possibly a resend From: YANK
Date: Sat, 14 Jul 2018 08:34:14 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Sigh... More Gmail fuck-ups. This may be a re-send. Some edits so read the whole damn thing.

I *am* that pervy leather daddy bear in his 50's with a corner of the bar people are scared to go to by. And you're welcome to join me there.

I'm glad your first day went so well and that you're volunteering. People like you making the effort to help, demonstrate, teach, and mentor are who make HypnoCons work.

Concerning kink... You and I need to remember that when I was 30 you were 13 and I had been Mr. Boston Leather, competed in IML, had a boyfriend who was the following year's International Mr. Leather, was a member of the Boston-based leather and SM fraternity Dreizehn, and had hosted a couple Mr. Drummer (the magazine) events in Boston. My experience is "Old Guard" while yours is "New Guard".

Predictably, I have some issues with the "New Guard".

Think back to David Chapman's essay on subcultures being dead. All his taking points apply to my perception of the New Guard. The internet and smartphones have radically changed kink exposure, learning, and group mind. But worst of all, kink and fetishes have become productized.

Kink used to be the domain of sexual renegades, explorers, free thinkers, and (like the title of the magazine) people who march to the beat of a different drummer.

The best Old Guard thing you said in your email is "Should be fun finding out." You are absolutely on the right track.

The New Guard classified and categorized everything, created social media web sites and apps like FetLife and Recon, and published "reimagined" books like The Leatherboy's Handbook. Arbitrary structure and rules. No one explores anymore beyond taking an online quiz to determine the right kink for their personality and Googling to find the chat rooms for it. And when you meet them they'll want to know which pigeon hole you chose from the approved list and they'll use bizarre slang they picked up from some kink web site because they thought EVERYONE knew that slang because EVERYONE is on that web site.

The worst part is how many New Guard kids (I'm a graybeard, I can call them kids) alter the criteria of a particular kink identity to fit their preferences and then bully everyone else into accepting their new affinity criteria. Case in point: I was one of the charter members of the Albuquerque Leather Daddies. Over time women started participating in our events as bootblacks or lackeys because they identified as "boys". Then FTM transgenders started being accepted as members even though they were just lesbians on testosterone with boyish. And everyone had the same battle cry, "We have to be INCLUSIVE".

Fuck inclusive. I have to be inclusive every God damn day at work, at the supermarket, at the gym, in my apartment complex, and 99.99% of the world I walk in. I demand the right to every now and then surround myself with only GROWN MEN who share my kinks and fetishes. Why do I have to accommodate WANNABES but they feel no obligation to respect MY boundaries?

Seek out the Old Guard for your kinks. Learn the histories, swap stories. You can modernize kink without co-opting it. Read some old-school erotic stories by Phil Andros. Find a pub where graybeard kink men over 50 hang out and join them occasionally.

Onward to the present.

I'm very glad to hear you have local kink buddies like your boot boy and other local men you hypnotize. That's where the real self-exploration and building genuine kink intimacy comes from.

Rope is good, the rope itself is an accessible fetish and the bondage is an accessible kink. Double win. But rope can be tricky and has risks. I suck at rope work so I use leather straps and the Velcro cuffs use by gym rats for some cable exercises. Very safe if someone needs to be freed quickly.

Power exchange is one of my favorite things and I'm sure we've talked about it before. When done right there's a lot of intimacy in the exchange, nothing at all like power surrender of "I'm the DOM and you're the sub".

Exhibitionism... One of my favorite things. Very liberating not to have to temper one's personality or actions. I'm glad you have become more comfortable with hypnosis in public. We shall have fun.

Muscle is actually a more complex topic for me. My core reaction to men with big muscles is visceral and largely about affection and intimacy. But I also have a lot of baggage about masculinity, individuality, identity, and rituals that muscle satisfies for me.

Urgh... running out of coffee energy. Time for another cup and to start my day.

Please give me some hints concerning what you want to do to me. I'm very motivated to learn what kinds of power exchange, dominance, and fantasy you hope to play out through hypnotizing me.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR

Subject: 140 ring cigar. No, really.
From: YANK
Date: Sat, 14 Jul 2018 12:08:08 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

https://www.bazukas.com/product/el-monstruo/

This cigar is 2.1875 inches (5.6 cm) in diameter.

"Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar. But a cigar THAT phallic is just begging for hypnotic cock/cigar play."

--Sigmund Freud
Subject: Hypnosis we will do
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 15 Jul 2018 06:47:18 -0500
To: YANK

As I'm typing on a smart phone, I am going to leave discussing a lot of what you write for face to face talk. But on hypnosis we will do ...

We seem to match well on my attitude to how it is used. I'm never a Sir or Master, at most I'll be a Boss or Trainer to guys. I enjoy owning / running scenes, giving experiences etc. But that's the limit of my ownership, over the method.

So neither of us like the "dumb jock" thing. On the other hand, having you hallucinate regarding muscle and cock growth on your body and the sensory overload of it making you unable or uninterested in think about anything else in that moment? Oh yeah. And given you fantasise about it and given the size you have attained previously - the sensory memory of all the muscle is already in there to be utilised and amplified. I'm looking forward to playing with that.

Sex slaves are dull. But if we're just hanging out and talking and you suddenly realise that you're naked and rock hard? Well I made that happen and it will probably feel completely fair to you to grab my head and fuck my face to sort it out.

At NEEHU I had a ton of fear around suggestions regarding multiple personalities, and I remember annoying you by talking about Brick a lot. I'm way over that now, having had my own experiences and really understanding that doing it about aspects of your whole self means it's just a stronger form of what we all do in society all the time. I'm looking forward to meeting Gruntor and finding out more about him.

I'm interested in doing it in non-binary ways - Brick was on/off based on the cap. Like how people might change into sweats at home, I have some ideas about helping aspects of Gruntor surface in ways that feel natural when you're safe to. At home is obviously safe for whatever. Outside ... I might play with things that someone watching us closely might twig to but you do have to live in the city so I'll not go too far. Places like the underwear bar might lend themselves to more impromptu stuff - I don't want to embarrass you out of a place you enjoy right now, but I do want to add fun to the night. Still coming up with ideas there tbh but that say would be more like finding the briefs tightening over time or playing with how you react to admirers. Nothing mean of course, more amping up your exhibitionist side etc.

We both like physical/rapid inductions, so there are two in particular I will do to you. While I don't do ownership, I find them pretty dominant and think you will enjoy the sensation. It's a thing to play around with though, I'll be doing more than two things, trust me. Inductions are great fun but I won't be focusing on them. That stuff is the playful fun side. I'd also like to spend some time with you exploring your abilities as a subject, helping you to push them to go for new effects and to generally be a better subject, so exploring depth of trance. When I go back I'd like to make at least one recording for you, so that exploration will give understanding of what will be most useful.

I'm also interested in exploring aspects of me as a subject, and you imparting things, like in your email. We talked about ritual before. I gained an identity of being a weightlifter before, but have lost it over recent months - it's just not how I see myself right now. I'd be interested in you seeding new identity stuff. Particularly, I'm at a point where I'm OK to move to bodybuilding over weightlifting. I know I'll never be huge starting now - but I know so many bodybuilders are never big enough - it's that need to grow I'm coming around to.

I think that taps into the part of you that wrote all that reply out. And your desire to make the world weirder, kinkier and just more fun!

Brit
Subject: Re: Hypnosis we will do
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 15 Jul 2018 09:04:47 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Every now and then I compose a formatted email when it's useful. My responses are colored below.
Subject: Re: Hypnosis we will do
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 15 Jul 2018 18:25:52 -0500
To: YANK

On your last section ... I was reminded of you pointing me at the Babylon 5 questions previously, and went over then again. Right now, the answers are not good ones. But that's OK. It's a starting point to getting to a place where they are good.
Subject: Re: Hypnosis we will do
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 15 Jul 2018 17:08:32 -0700
To: BRIT

"Who are you? What do you want? Why are you here? Where are you going?"

Those are the kind of questions for which you live your way to the answers. Good as a starting point and periodic check of your personal map.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Farewell to Entranced
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 16 Jul 2018 06:46:53 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

According to my calendar Entranced has largely wrapped up. I'm sure there are other people staying in the Chicago area for a few more days like you are. I hope you enjoy the city and have fun with friends you made at Entranced.

Please share tales of your ongoing hypnosis adventures with me.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: Farewell to Entranced
From: BRIT
Date: Mon, 16 Jul 2018 09:39:26 -0500
To: YANK

Although this is my fourth event, this is the first time I'm really feeling the dreaded con-drop as this was easily the most emotional one. I'll be OK as it's easing out as you say and I'm booked to play the next two nights.

This may be the last Entranced for not great reasons and I have found a lump in my throat saying goodbye to a few. There are always other events of course, but still ...

I'll fill you in on play stories when I'm a little more settled.

Brit
Subject: Re: Farewell to Entranced
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 16 Jul 2018 08:22:04 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I'm glad Entranced had a impact on you even if the emotional rebalancing is strenuous. We can share stories over whisky and/or cigars when you get to [Redacted].

ook ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Why I hate gyms in [Redacted] and don't go often anymore
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 16 Jul 2018 20:30:58 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I joined Fitness for $10 a mere 22 months ago when it was at then nearby intersection of Decatur Blvd. and Sahara Ave. Then they moved to the less convenient Twain Ave and Rainbow Blvd. location, a former Edge Fitness gym with 1/10th the space. But at least I still got free tanning.

But not anymore. Fitness for $10 is closing in 2 days and they're transferring my membership to EOS Sahara Ave. *WHERE I ALREADY MAINTAIN A MEMBERSHIP*. So... No value to the remaining 4 months of my Fitness for $10 membership, no more free tanning, and the same membership at a corporate gym I only go to for a change of pace.

It's been just under 2 years and my gym membership has bounced to a 3rd location. WTF? #ThatsSo[Redacted]

ook fuckin ook mutha fuckers,

GRUNTOR

Club logo Dear YANK:

Due to unforeseen circumstances, our FF10 Rainbow Blvd location will be closing effective 07/18/18. All members of this location will be transferred to EOS Fitness Sahara, with no changes to your current FF10 membership fees. If you have any questions about PEAK Performance Personal Training sessions, please contact Mike Perez at: mperez@trainwithpeak.com

Your new EOS Fitness Sahara features a wide variety of amenities such as a cinema room, large functional training area with turf, basketball half court, indoor pool, dry sauna, towel service, open 24/7, and more!

EOS Fitness 8125 W. Sahara Ave, Ste 100 [Redacted], NV 89117 Email: gmlsa@eosfitness.com

Please bring your photo ID and FF10 keycard with you when you visit EOS Fitness Sahara to get your new EOS keycard.

We apologize for any inconvenience this has caused and hope you will enjoy your new facility. FF10 Management

Our mailing address is: FF10 LV Rainbow 4225 3645 S. Rainbow Blvd [Redacted], Nevada 89103 Contact Us Phone Number: (725) 605-2444 Email: noreply@fitnessfor10.com
Subject: Re: Why I hate gyms in [Redacted] and don't go often anymore
From: BRIT
Date: Tue, 17 Jul 2018 06:19:07 -0500
To: YANK

That is insane, and surprising. The cost in setting up the location for a gym is going to be significant with modelling appropriate changing rooms, showers and these days steam rooms etc. requiring building, services etc.

I hope you can point out you are now paying twice for the same service and get a refund.
Subject: Your bad influence
From: BRIT
Date: Tue, 17 Jul 2018 07:21:53 -0500
To: YANK

I spend too much time on Amazon getting things like this now.

[Attachment redacted]

Subject: Re: Why I hate gyms in [Redacted] and don't go often anymore
From: YANK
Date: Tue, 17 Jul 2018 05:44:39 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I'm going in to talk to the manager tonight. I don't think I'll get any refund, all they're obligated to do is provide access to another one of their gyms or equivalent.

I could cancel the EOS membership I pay for but then I'd have to pay the $79 set-up fee again in October when my FF10 membership runs out.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: Your bad influence
From: YANK
Date: Tue, 17 Jul 2018 05:46:21 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Excellent choice of stretchy gear. I have a whole tub of briefs, shorts, and posing trunks you can explore.

GRUNTOR LIKE BULGE BRIEFS.

ook ook.
Subject: [Redacted] bodybuilder dies of sepsis related to cocaine problem
From: YANK
Date: Tue, 17 Jul 2018 08:27:54 -0700
To: BRIT

https://www.[Redacted]eveningnews.co.uk/news/greater-[Redacted]-news/cocaine-sepsis-bodyb uilder-darren-vernon-14918384

Champion bodybuilder died of sepsis, aged 39, because of his secret cocaine use - 'It was clear that there was something wrong but not exactly what it was'
Subject: Re: [Redacted] bodybuilder dies of sepsis related to cocaine problem
From: BRIT
Date: Tue, 17 Jul 2018 10:32:40 -0500
To: YANK

I had never thought of that happening, but I suppose cocaine is known to "corrode" flesh. Such a shame.
Subject: Re: [Redacted] bodybuilder dies of sepsis related to cocaine problem
From: YANK
Date: Tue, 17 Jul 2018 10:13:13 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

The big problem is all the solvents used in manufacturing that barely get washed out at all. So long as the buyer gets the high he/she wants they never wonder how much brake fluid or carburetor cleaner was in it.

--Yank

(GRUNTOR is not well versed in chemistry)
Subject: Hope you have a rollicking kink-fest of a night
From: YANK
Date: Tue, 17 Jul 2018 16:22:36 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I hope you have an enjoyable night inflicting inhuman libido-swelling mind control and brutal fetishistic identity twisting on your playmate(s). It will get you warmed up for working me over.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Speaking of Gruntor...
From: YANK
Date: Tue, 17 Jul 2018 18:26:06 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Did I ever tell you about Gorilla Gay Bar?

Many years ago in Albuquerque a "guerrilla gay bar" group popped up. The idea is like a flash mob, a bunch of gay people just show up at a straight bar.

Albuquerque's group was led by a couple of lesbians and the flash mobs were problematic. 200 extra people would show up at a bar without notice and the bars couldn't handle so many people. The first event I went to was packed with 2 wedding parties and then the gays showed up. I waited 45 minutes at the bar to get a drink then gave up.

Gorilla Gay Bar was a guerrilla gay bar event I came up with. Men only, gathering at sports bars and cigar bars.

-----

We're a "guerrilla gay bar" event for MEN. Every month or so we meet at a different non-gay bar to hang out with the guys.

A lot of gay men in Albuquerque would rather go to a bar with motorcycles in front than one with chain-smoking drag queens in front. Gorilla Gay Bar believes men have the right to hang out with the type of men they prefer. And sometimes that doesn't mean you.

Tough Guys, Muscleheads, Bears, Jocks, Cowboys, Bad-ass Brutes ... JOIN US!

Twinks, Dancers, Lesbians on testosterone, Drag Queens, Pansexuals, Women ... Enjoy the bars you already enjoy!

Don't like our attitude? We encourage you to start a "guerrilla gay bar" event for your crowd. We'll be glad to respect your preferences and stay away.

-----

5 people showed up for the first, then a couple more, and a couple more. At the 4th event someone brought a fag hag even though the plan was no women. 3 women came to the 5th event. That's when I shut it down.

My former boyfriend the Navajo did the artwork. I suppose our mascot is the first Gruntor.

--Yank


Subject: Hat size, please?
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2018 13:08:09 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

What size hat do you wear? Dollar store hats are "one size fits many" but if you have a bigger head like I do they may be problematic.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: Hat size, please?
From: BRIT
Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2018 15:41:29 -0500
To: YANK

I'm just entering a "hat curious" phase I life. I have a baseball cap and another at present. There's no measurement on it apart from "medium".

Subject: Re: Speaking of Gruntor...
From: BRIT
Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2018 15:45:32 -0500
To: YANK

Maybe instead do something like invitation only poker nights where you play for each other's clothing ;)
Subject: Re: Hat size, please?
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2018 14:35:01 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

A dollar store hat should fit you fine. You can leave it behind or throw it away at the end of your visit.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: Speaking of Gruntor...
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2018 14:36:34 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I don't know. Most guys would show up wearing just a jockstrap and the poker games wouldn't last long. But maybe that's a GOOD thing.

ook ook,

DEAL IN GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: Speaking of Gruntor...
From: BRIT
Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2018 16:49:45 -0500
To: YANK

See, this could work out fine ;) easy to smoke and drink what you want too.
Subject: Re: Speaking of Gruntor...
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2018 15:00:12 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

There's a board game cafe in my neighborhood (http://meepleville.com). Perhaps the jockstrap, whiskey, and cigar crowd can meet there to play Mystery Date.

"Will your date be a dream or a dud?"

ook ook,

DREAM DATE GRUNTOR
Subject: [Redacted] appropriate clothing
From: BRIT
Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2018 17:01:47 -0500
To: YANK

I did listen when you said to pack appropriate things, but living in the UK I had very little suited to a very hot climate. I tried shopping for some, got annoyed with my freakish ape like proportions as ever then decided I'd get some clothes when there, rather than lugging them around Chicago. So, I'll likely need a clothes shop. I have light trousers but have always had trouble finding long sleeved things that fit both my arms and chest, grrr.
Subject: Re: [Redacted] appropriate clothing
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2018 15:13:50 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

We have everything from thrift stores (charity shops?) to mainstream department stores to Godawful expensive exclusive boutiques that won't let proletariat like me through the door.

I recommend we start at the thrift stores, I was surprised how many dress shirts they had for 18-1/2" neck and 36-37" sleeve.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR FIND FREAKISH APELIKE PROPORTIONS STRANGELY APPEALING
Subject: Re: [Redacted] appropriate clothing
From: BRIT
Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2018 17:18:01 -0500
To: YANK

Well freakish ape arms have actually been a good reason to gain weight so that clothes fit my chest ...
Subject: Re: [Redacted] appropriate clothing
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2018 15:21:25 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Sounds like a job for elastane. To the UnderArmour outlet!

ook stretchy ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Thursday arrival plans
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2018 21:13:40 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Please remember that Thursday we meet at your flight's baggage carousel. It's the best landmark at the airport.

I will leave work at 2:00 PM Pacific Daylight Time (our time base here). By the time I get to our meeting point you should be landed and de-planed.

My mobile number is [Redacted].

Do you want me to get you a pre-paid SIM? Unlimited talk and text, 2 Gig 4G-LTE internet, some free international calling too. A good starter kit is available at the 7-Eleven convenience store a block form my apartment.

Please no ambush hypnosis in hectic crowded areas. For example, the baggage carousel would be a NO but next to my car in the parking garage would be a YES. Conversational hypnosis, NLP, and affectionate coercion would be OK pretty much anywhere.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: Thursday arrival plans
From: BRIT
Date: Thu, 19 Jul 2018 03:24:58 -0500
To: YANK

I shall be waiting for my bags and you!

The prepaid SIM would be handy, thanks. Please let me pay you back for it - I am going to be taking up your time, getting lodgings from you etc so I intend to not be an extra financial drain where possible.

With flying when brown, I'd prefer to get out of security controlled areas before doing anything suspicious looking ;)

Brit
Subject: Re: Thursday arrival plans
From: YANK
Date: Thu, 19 Jul 2018 06:02:44 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Look for the high-maintenance trophy wife with too much Louis Vuitton luggage and a Swarovski crystal-encrusted iPhone X glued to her ear. I'll be the bald guy with a facial twitch standing behind her.

I'll see if I can nab your SIM before heading to work, good excuse to get a coffee and sweet roll at 7-Eleven.

ook ook,

GRUNTOR
Subject: Re: Thursday arrival plans
From: BRIT
Date: Thu, 19 Jul 2018 11:52:26 -0500
To: YANK

I'm on my way, about to board. Things are to schedule so far!
Subject: Re: Thursday arrival plans
From: YANK
Date: Thu, 19 Jul 2018 09:55:23 -0700
To: BRIT

Safe travels, friend!

ook ook.

The Brit arrived the night of 19 July 2018. We explored the city, went to the gym, ate out, visited a couple of my favorite bars, and fed the feral cats I cared for. All very "vanilla."

But the intimacy... We had both been so hungry for so long we gorged on the intimacy, especially power exchange and our mutual kinks. We were both competent and comfortable in dominant and serving roles and we covered a lot of territory.

Perhaps our most powerful erotic hypnosis session was the Brit turning me into a gorilla. We had discussed it years before at the NEEHU hypnocon. I had previously given him blanket consent to hypnotize me anywhere, any time, for any purpose without asking or telling me. On Sunday afternoon we were relaxing naked on the sofa. I got up and headed to the kitchen for water. The Brit leapt up, slammed me against the wall and commanded "SLEEP", then he pulled me by my balls down to a gorilla knuckle dragging posture while suggesting... gorilla stuff, I guess, my mind was turning gorilla and I can't remember his words. Turns out my mind knew a lot of American Sign Language but no matter how many times I signed "GORILLA LOVE BEARDMAN" the Brit didn't understand me.

After the Brit turned me human again we sat on my balcony drinking whiskey. I smoked a cigar.

I said to him, "I have fallen in love with you."

He replied, "I have fallen in love with you too."

He described us as "desperate" saying that I'd understand how he meant that. I did. We were both middle-aged, making us ancient in gay terms. Our favorite kink was erotic hypnosis, which is a micro-niche interest. We were both comfortable along the full width of the power exchange spectrum while most people are highly polarized. We're both usually presumed to be straight and most of our friends are straight. There just aren't many available men like us.

The Brit and I talked about what we could do to be together. I told him I was comfortable with either of us relocating to be with the other. He asked me how I could be so willing to take such a huge risk.

I told him I believed we were both men of good conscience and good intentions, and that no matter what happened between us we would treat each other with kindness and fairness.

I had some concerns that I chalked up to the Brit's apprehension.

The Brit told me he was a "top" and he'd want to fuck me, his lover. I really didn't like ass play and I told him so. Because I'd had so many bad experiences with "tops" I asked him a trick question: If I did let him fuck me, would I get to fuck him too?

He cringed and said, "That's probably not going to happen."

The Brit said because I do not get fucked he'd need to connect with other men to fuck every couple of months to temper his sexual desires. I told him I understood, and it was unrealistic for us as kink men to think we could meet all of each other's wants and needs. If I met a huge roided muscle beast who wanted muscle worship I'd want permission to spend time with him. We discussed a non-monogamous relationship being best, but we'd always be each other's primary man, each other's first choice, each other's cornerstone.

The next day the Brit was furious that I expected him to be monogamous while I could run around with any man who appealed to me.

Wait, what?

We discussed sexual health and STI (British, sexually transmitted infections) testing. The Brit admitted he was a hypochondriac and got tested for free through NHS every 3 months or so. I explained that I'd have to pay out of pocket and that frequent testing was unaffordable. I told him we could negotiate how often to test once we started exchanging bodily fluids regularly.

He got furious that I said he demanded I get tested as frequently as he does.

Wait, what?

We also disagreed about "HIV, the virus that causes AIDS." I was sexually active when AIDS was GRID and no one knew what the Hell was causing that illness. I was also working in medical research at that time. I had a decade more life experience than the Brit as a sexually active adult and I had seen 1/3 the gay men my age die while causal theories flew fast and furious. I told the Brit that I wasn't convinced that HIV alone was the cause and there were probably many other factors involved.

Later the Brit would eviscerate me for standing by my belief that by itself HIV ≠ AIDS.

The Brit would occasionally tell me that something I said or did, which I thought was innocuous, was a "red flag" or a "warning sign." I told the Brit that scorekeeping like that was offensive and destuctive.

He said, "I have the right to protect myself!"

Wait, what?

I had never before had anyone point out "red flags" and "warning signs" they saw directly to me at the moment they perceived them. Maybe later, and to a friend over beer, but never right then and there to ME. I had no prior experience to guide me.

At the end of the Brit's visit we agreed I'd fly to the UK for his city's Leather Weekend the beginning of October.

Subject: MLW18 is coming
From: BRIT
Date: Mon, 23 Jul 2018 06:20:10 -0700
To: YANK

https://[Redacted]leathermen.org/[Redacted]-leather-weekend/
Subject: Re: Flights and fares, [Redacted] to [Redacted], 1st weekend in October
From: BRIT
Date: Mon, 23 Jul 2018 14:49:04 -0700
To: YANK

I have not flown with them, but they are a well known brand so I would have no concerns about them.

We can talk dates, but I'll be delighted to take days off to take you out and about. I know less of [Redacted] than you do if [Redacted] though. We might discover it together!
Subject: Another thing a psychotherapist told me
From: YANK
Date: Tue, 24 Jul 2018 10:35:24 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

My Adult Children of Alcoholics therapy group leader once said that if life were a meal it wouldn't have a main course, rather, it would be endless servings of appetizers and nibbles. If you held back waiting for a main course you'd starve.

Thank you for giving me a week at the all-you-can-eat buffet.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Good night
From: YANK
Date: Tue, 24 Jul 2018 20:26:37 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

As I write this, your jet is leaving Newfoundland, Canada airspace heading east.

In no particular order...

I found about $73 in bills and coins in the tabby cat mug in the cabinet. I can only assume your cum sprites put it there.

The black-and-white striped brief you look good in is no longer available in black-and-white stripes. The cut is good on you, perhaps you'd like some of the other patterns. http://prevailsport.com/american.html

I have attached a speech-to-text transcript of Blink's Basic Induction. It needs some corrections and line breaks for readability. Try it on your subjects and when you become proficient with its language and induction style I'd like you to use it with me.

My apartment feels uncomfortably empty without you and Jack.

I have eaten, fed my cats, brought food and water to the street cats, and I'll be going to bed in a moment. Your jet will land just after midnight my time.

My 2 year anniversary in [Redacted] will be Sunday, 5 August 2018, at 8:30 PM here. Raise a toast for me wherever you are.

I shall be with you again in the fullness of time. Until then we have all the telecom technology the 21st century has to offer. And CatNet. When you meet a friendly cat ask it to relay a greeting for me by way of Farnsworth, White Fang, or Snowshoe.

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zhfVgNKjFKE)

With my love (and an "ook ook"),

BIG LUG

[Attachment redacted]

Jack was one of the friendly feral kittens from the colony I took care of. I found him a new home.

Subject: Re: Please let me know when you get home safely
From: BRIT
Date: Wed, 25 Jul 2018 02:15:46 -0500
To: YANK

Just landed!
Subject: Re: Please let me know when you get home safely
From: BRIT
Date: Wed, 25 Jul 2018 04:12:28 -0500
To: YANK

And back home, looks like I really did lock the back door, phew!
Subject: Re: Good night
From: BRIT
Date: Wed, 25 Jul 2018 13:36:24 +0100
To: YANK
Subject: Re: Good night
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 25 Jul 2018 07:29:35 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

Forcing yourself to get back in sync with the local time is actually effective. Coffee will help. And try not t go to bed more than an hour earlier than usual.

Would you please send me your address?

Cats cared for, breakfast eaten, lunch box packed. Time to shower, dress, and get to the land of cubicles.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Good night
From: BRIT
Date: Wed, 25 Jul 2018 09:51:14 -0500
To: YANK

[Address redacted]
Subject: Re: Good night
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 25 Jul 2018 08:14:18 -0700
To: BRIT

Thanks, Poppa!

--BIG LUG
Subject: Aggressive inductions for people with busy minds?
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 25 Jul 2018 08:44:52 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

You had mentioned learning induction techniques effective for subjects with busy minds. You said some of the methods similar to brainwashing.

When I come for [Redacted] Leather Weekend I'd like you to try those techniques with me, please. If you know any similar techniques that would be compatible with Skype please let me know.

Still seeking the elusive blackout.

Hugs,

BIG LUG
Subject: Hats
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 25 Jul 2018 11:56:49 -0700
To: BRIT

Dollar store cowboy hats, a look that goes from day to night with ease.

--BIG LUG

[Attachment redacted]


[Attachment redacted]

Subject: Re: Hats
From: BRIT
Date: Wed, 25 Jul 2018 19:58:08 +0100
To: YANK

I thought I chose the light side, but the darkness was always inside already.
Subject: Re: Hats
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 25 Jul 2018 12:39:10 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

The best men wear white hats with black linings.

--BIG LUG
Subject: I've seen the future, I can't afford it
From: YANK
Date: Wed, 25 Jul 2018 15:59:27 -0700
To: BRIT

https://www.cbsnews.com/news/want-a-middle-class-life-prepare-to-pay-up/

Climbing inflation + stagnant wages = death of the American middle-class lifestyle

--Matthew
Subject: Recommended web sites / apps to meet recreational hypnotists?
From: YANK
Date: Thu, 26 Jul 2018 06:54:37 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

You mentioned that you had met some hypnosis participants on Recon and HypnosisForGuys. Are there any other web sites or apps you have found useful?

Next Saturday the [Redacted] boys of Leather are holding their monthly "Gear Night" at the Funhog Ranch bar. I haven't been to that event in a while. The dog masks creep me out but I've met some friendly guys there.

Tonight is Underwear Night at Badlands but it starts at 10 PM which functionally excludes people who work days. Otherwise I'd go.

I figure I need to get more assertive about making friends and finding like-minded kinksters.

The [Redacted] metro area has about 800,000 more people than [Redacted], and the UK is much better connected for travel than Nevada and its adjoining states. I envy that you have made multiple in-person hypnosis buddies and I would like the same. I'll just have to work a little harder.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Aggressive inductions for people with busy minds?
From: BRIT
Date: Thu, 26 Jul 2018 21:40:44 +0100
To: YANK

The posing thing we were talking about would be the most interesting one to play with - it is something that will occupy your conscious mind effectively. The other brainwashing ones felt a bit more geared towards signs of servitude more than submission, which doesn't feel right for you.

I need to research posing and will probably have to write up the script before recording it for you.
Subject: Re: Aggressive inductions for people with busy minds?
From: YANK
Date: Thu, 26 Jul 2018 13:57:24 -0700
To: BRIT

Understood. Submitting to training, coaching, mentoring, guidance are very good. Servility sucks.

I'll see what useful material I can send you about posing. There are several aspects to hitting a pose... the transition into the pose, the details of how to position your body and muscles, hitting and holding the pose, sometimes transitioning to an alternate form of the pose, releasing.

One thing the statue people forget is that flexing more than a few seconds usually leads to muscle cramps. You just can't hit a pose and get frozen in it. PAINFUL.

If I put a DVD ISO image on Google Drive would you be able to mount it to watch?

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Aggressive inductions for people with busy minds?
From: YANK
Date: Thu, 26 Jul 2018 14:09:49 -0700
To: BRIT

Look up PERFECT POSING by GARY UDIT. It's a classic of the genre. Many video clips from his original VHS tape are online, as are videos from his posing seminars.

--BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Aggressive inductions for people with busy minds?
From: BRIT
Date: Thu, 26 Jul 2018 22:14:35 +0100
To: YANK

I should be able to mount an ISO image, or at worst burn it (I have a number of uwritten DVDs I may as well use).

I had thought to watch a few posing routines online to pick up some ordering. Hopefully I won't find the muscle show too distracting ;)
Subject: Re: Recommended web sites / apps to meet recreational hypnotists?
From: BRIT
Date: Thu, 26 Jul 2018 22:25:17 +0100
To: YANK
Subject: Re: Aggressive inductions for people with busy minds?
From: BRIT
Date: Thu, 26 Jul 2018 22:26:42 +0100
To: YANK

Thank you, that looks very useful.
Subject: Re: Aggressive inductions for people with busy minds?
From: YANK
Date: Thu, 26 Jul 2018 14:52:16 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

Do a Google video search on SAMSON JACOB OCB ALBUQUERQUE. It's my trainee Sam Collopy showing off what I taught him and deservedly getting trophies.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Recommended web sites / apps to meet recreational hypnotists?
From: YANK
Date: Thu, 26 Jul 2018 15:10:35 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

Yes, I am indeed feeling charged up. I'm limerent and stupid but more importantly I feel hope for the first time in about 5 years. It's intoxicating and terrifying.

Although I agree with Howard Jones...

And maybe love is letting people be just what they want to be
The door always must be left unlocked
To love when circumstance may lead someone away from you
And not to spend the time just doubting

...I still want to see what will become of us. Passionate friends who meet in person every year or so? Confidantes who inspire each other? Punch drunk love struck fools?

Enough pop culture references for one email. Sleep well, my strongman, and let yourself feel me curled up on your chest.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Recommended web sites / apps to meet recreational hypnotists?
From: BRIT
Date: Fri, 27 Jul 2018 17:22:07 +0100
To: YANK

I have no idea of what might happen. I would like something to though.

Will you be free to Skype on Saturday at all? I would really love to see you :)
Subject: Re: Recommended web sites / apps to meet recreational hypnotists?
From: YANK
Date: Fri, 27 Jul 2018 10:47:48 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

I can make time for Skype whenever you'd like this weekend.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Aggressive inductions for people with busy minds?
From: BRIT
Date: Fri, 27 Jul 2018 18:52:15 +0100
To: YANK

Wow https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vCJwTh9wUp4 he is clearly in another class!
Subject: Re: ED_CORNEY_POSING.iso
From: BRIT
Date: Fri, 27 Jul 2018 18:53:29 +0100
To: YANK

That plays fine - and what a man!
Subject: Re: Aggressive inductions for people with busy minds?
From: YANK
Date: Fri, 27 Jul 2018 10:58:45 -0700
To: BRIT

Glad you liked the videos. Sam is a Hell of a man. On Halloween he will usually go to the gym as the HULK in green body paint and wig, wearing cut-off jeans.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: ED_CORNEY_POSING.iso
From: YANK
Date: Fri, 27 Jul 2018 11:00:11 -0700
To: BRIT

And an even better muscle Daddy.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Recommended web sites / apps to meet recreational hypnotists?
From: BRIT
Date: Fri, 27 Jul 2018 19:03:26 +0100
To: YANK

I will be around after 4pm my time - that should be from 8am at your end.

I will also get my microphone out so any hypnosis we do can be recorded :)
Subject: Re: Recommended web sites / apps to meet recreational hypnotists?
From: YANK
Date: Fri, 27 Jul 2018 11:10:18 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

I'll probably be up and reasonably alert at that time. I'll email you when I wake up and we can find a time soon after that works for us both.

Are there any screen recorders that could capture the video and audio? My friend Bonnie used one once with Google Video but I don't know how they sliced and diced it into Hangouts.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Recommended web sites / apps to meet recreational hypnotists?
From: BRIT
Date: Fri, 27 Jul 2018 19:12:07 +0100
To: YANK

I'm happy to give you more time, I've little planned apart from house things and chores. I'd like you to get proper rest, to feel happier from that and grow bigger again. Because, you are going to grow bigger again.
Subject: Skype 3rd party video recorders
From: YANK
Date: Fri, 27 Jul 2018 11:13:34 -0700
To: BRIT

https://support.skype.com/en/faq/FA12395/how-can-i-record-my-skype-calls

https://www.nytimes.com/2018/03/29/technology/personaltech/recording-skype-calls.html

ook ook.
Subject: Re: Recommended web sites / apps to meet recreational hypnotists?
From: YANK
Date: Fri, 27 Jul 2018 11:20:13 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I ordered RoidTest kits for my inventory for final peace of mind. And I found providers for hGH secretagogues. And sources for medical grade silicone to better fill my posing trunks. And fresh supplies to make synthol. You remember my "But I still want you bigger" story? I want you to do that to me.

I'm also going to try out some gyms that may be more motivating. Iron Addicts is great for that, but the hours suck. http://www.ironaddicts-las[Redacted].com/index.html

GRUNTOR HUGE GORILLA

ook ook
Subject: Re: Recommended web sites / apps to meet recreational hypnotists?
From: BRIT
Date: Fri, 27 Jul 2018 20:48:53 +0100
To: YANK

Grrr, 300lb to start!

Back to the swolest headspace!
Subject: How to Do Inductions... dot com!
From: YANK
Date: Fri, 27 Jul 2018 12:54:20 -0700
To: BRIT

http://www.howtodoinductions.com/

Brit,

I was Googling for information on confusion inductions and I found this site. Looks like it covers basic techniques well. As a skilled hypnotist, what is your impression?

ook ook.
Subject: Re: Recommended web sites / apps to meet recreational hypnotists?
From: YANK
Date: Fri, 27 Jul 2018 13:00:47 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

Back in Albuquerque I told my straight training partner Justin that when I reached 300 pounds I wasn't taking no for an answer. I really REALLY want to show up at his door in boots and a brief at an obscenely yoked 300 pounds.

What's Justin doing these days? I'm glad you asked... http://aptitudefitnessgym.wixsite.com/byjustintafoya/online-coaching

ook ook.
Subject: Re: How to Do Inductions... dot com!
From: BRIT
Date: Sat, 28 Jul 2018 11:08:07 +0100
To: YANK

The confusion induction script is one I have used before - I never know if I got it from this site or it's the same script being copied and pasted all over!

Looks like there is a lot of raw content which can be useful, although missing the discussion of when each would help e.g. confusion induction helps overload analaytical subjects.

I am personally at the stage where I need to go back and cover the basics again ... I've wandered so far down one path of the Ericksonian type story telling stuff that I've let my skill at other methods start to waste a way a little. So this will be useful for me to make sure I have all of that covered, thanks.

I'm going to dig up Mark Wiseman's book as it has a fun physical confusion induction that I've not used before but I think will work well on you.

The thing is though, you need deepeners more than inductions. You can go into trance easily enough. We're going to work on that side more. I'll hold back on suggestions so much, and just explore depth of trance with you more to help you go further down.
Subject: Re:
From: YANK
Date: Sat, 28 Jul 2018 07:01:11 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I need the wallpaper size version of that for work!

ook ook.
Subject: My final 2 profiles on BigMuscle.com
From: YANK
Date: Sat, 28 Jul 2018 11:47:03 -0700
To: BRIT

...and the two guys who replied.

ook ook,

BIG LUG

[NOTE: My profile is not a fantasy, it is a plan. My finances have taken a hit recently but I will still be doing this in Fall 2016. It's not sane, it's not safe, it's not normal. Neither am I.]

LET'S GET BIG

Let's get MASSIVE and MUSCLEBOUND. I'm looking for a man around 50 (or much younger if you want a Muscle Papa) who wants to get SWOLE and FREAKY HUGE with a muscle geezer like me by his side. We don't want to get any older before we do this balls out.

Let's be cartoonishly HYPERMASCULINE men, scarred-up inked-up shaved-down oiled-up roid-bellied bad-ass biker bouncer bodybuilder strongman MUSCLEBOUND BRUTES juiced out on half a dozen steroids and quarts of synthol with our cocks pumped up and siliconed freaky huge. You'll wrap your colossal arm behind my bull neck and squeeze my face against your boulder-sized pecs while we smoke cigars and drink whiskey and get more tattoos.

Let's be tough talking, rough acting, EXHIBITIONIST MUSCLE BEASTS who stomp around in big boots and TINY POSING TRUNKS all the time. Let's keep each other shaved smooth and perpetually ready to show off and deliver the goods. Let's be sexual predators who get off on FORCING other men and each other to EJACULATE in front of gawkers.

I need a man who KISSES like a champ. A man who gives and takes PHYSICAL AFFECTION constantly. A man who's kinky with sensuality, role play, fantasy, and cock toys. A man who whips out his cock and shoves it in my mouth, anywhere and any time, when he needs relief. A man who restrains me with his GIGANTIC BODY and jacks me off, anywhere and any time, when I need to be calmed down. But not into ass play (no fucking, rimming, poking, etc.). It's just not my thing.

Since it's a crap shoot whether I'll meet a man like that in Rhode Island, one or both of us can relocate. I'm thinking maybe [Redacted], there are lots of gyms, a good number of muscleheads, steroids from L.A., and lots of plastic surgeons for muscle implants and cock enlargement. We'll get low-stress part-time jobs to make ends meet, preferably involving macho uniforms or bulgewear.

Deal breakers: Poppers, pot, meth, ecstasy, coke, and all the other junkie drugs, more-than-occasional cigarettes, circuit parties, married men, iPhone addicts.

I like my men like my coffee, so STRONG they make me shake.



The very end of July 2016 I'll be relocating to [Redacted], NV. I'll be working part time and making bodybuilding my main focus. I want to get HUGE before my body gets too old to grow effectively. I've budgeted to do this for a year minimum.

Want to JOIN ME?

I'll be doing it the low budget way: simple apartment, minimal luxuries, basic anabolics, solid old-school training. Two guys living together can do it cheaper per person than doing it solo. And it'll be helpful to share housekeeping, cooking, utilities, and bodybuilder stuff like shaving, massage, and injections.

If you're tired of being "normal", and you don't want to be defined by your job, and home ownership doesn't make you feel complete, shrug it all off and be a GYM RAT with me.

[Attachment redacted]


[Attachment redacted]

Subject: Weekly full-body workout plans
From: YANK
Date: Sat, 28 Jul 2018 11:55:43 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

From my archives. Good workout plans to get your body revved up for a couple months before switching to strongman training.

ook ook.
MuscleMag Workout

32 Set Workout
Subject: A good place to see leather styles you may like
From: YANK
Date: Sat, 28 Jul 2018 12:13:29 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

http://jaminleather.com

This company has been dependable for me over the decades. The shipping fees might be prohibitive for you, but you can get a good idea of what styles might suit you best.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Where musclebears come from
From: YANK
Date: Sat, 28 Jul 2018 12:20:36 -0700
To: BRIT

https://ordersinbulk.tumblr.com/
Subject: I think this would be a good look for you.
From: YANK
Date: Sat, 28 Jul 2018 15:40:10 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

You already have the beard and stubble scalp and that's half the battle.

You'd have to be more careful when doing slam-against-wall inductions. Except with me, of course.

ook ook,

BIG LUG


Subject: The ongoing saga of how and why HypnosisForGuys stinks
From: YANK
Date: Sat, 28 Jul 2018 19:01:40 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I was just on HypnosisForGuys checking messages. I got an IM from clippers591 in Australia. He offered a Skype session.

I told him I liked to get to know a hypnotist, his methods, his goals, see if we could have a rapport. He said for the first session he wanted me to listen to an MP3 file while he watched on video chat to see how I responded.

Right.

I told him nope, I've had too many guys send me a file they wanted me to listen to and when I'd pre-screen it there was always something like a slave-on-command suggestion at the end.

I'm trying hard not to hate HypnosisForGuys. I'm trying hard not to hate Skype. I'm trying hard not to hate the internet as a way of meeting people with interests in common.

It ain't easy.

ook fucking ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Spirals? Yes, we have spirals
From: YANK
Date: Sat, 28 Jul 2018 20:37:54 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Here is a site for Javascript hypnosis spirals you can customize with whatever subliminal messages you like.

Because of my fucked up temporal lobe I find then quite intense. Neurologists consider it a kind of "photic driving" and I'm highly susceptible to it. I think they're good for mantras and meditation. Nothing will compare to you slamming me against the wall and pulling me by the balls to Gruntor. But I'd love to feel you try.

Source code file attached.

I have not explored the other offerings. Perhaps as a more skilled hypnotist you have an opinion.

ook ook,

BIG LUG

[Attachment redacted]

Subject: Re: I think this would be a good look for you.
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 07:34:11 +0100
To: YANK

Hubba Hubba!
Subject: Re: The ongoing saga of how and why HypnosisForGuys stinks
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 07:37:20 +0100
To: YANK

Yep, unfortunately this scene attracts a number of insecure creeps.

I was going to ask yesterday how you got on with thecigarboss and to reiterate I would be delighted for you to work with other hypnotists. While my ego would be stroked to do it all for you, it's like you said about one person perhaps not supplying everything another needs.

Flipnotist gets praise for muscle stuff from some guys I like.

Get bigger!
Subject: Re: Spirals? Yes, we have spirals
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 07:39:52 +0100
To: YANK

Ah the famous Nimja - many people love his spirals 🙂 I'll be meeting him at the event I got myself talking at.

I'd suggest you run your own experiments to find the things that work best for you, then let me drop text in.

Get bigger!
Subject: Re: A good place to see leather styles you may like
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 10:44:06 +0100
To: YANK

Hypno bear likes the blazers.

Lots of nice stuff in there.

I can't help but feel they know their market with the models they chose :)
Subject: Remember that 22 year old I mentioned?
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 10:52:37 +0100
To: YANK

He's been in the gym since I played with him a year ago. I can't believe how much he filled out ...

[Attachment redacted]

Subject: There is no reason to send you this
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 12:11:01 +0100
To: YANK


Subject: Bandanna to flag hypnosis?
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 08:07:13 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

Tucking a color-coded bandanna in your pocket to "flag" your sexual interest is outdated in this era or Grind'r and Scruff, but men still do it. Go figure.

I couldn't find any reference of bandannas to flag for hypnosis.

Perhaps one of these? Zazzle is a print-on-demand service so I can make my own design. I'm thinking pocket watches.

https://www.zazzle.com/s/hypnotic+bandanas

https://www.zazzle.com/s/spiral+bandanas

After all, I want to be prepared for [Redacted] Leather Weekend.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Remember that 22 year old I mentioned?
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 08:28:10 -0700
To: BRIT

He's beefed up nicely!

Do you recognize his tattoo? The titular character in "Hedwig and the Angry Inch" had that. It's based on the Origin of Love mythology.

ook cinematic ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Spirals? Yes, we have spirals
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 08:33:11 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

I'm constantly amazed by all the hypnosis people you know.

I'll find which spiral/morph/tunnel design is most effective for me and I'll send you the link and/or settings.

ook ook.
Subject: Re: The ongoing saga of how and why HypnosisForGuys stinks
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 08:42:59 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I did one brief Skype hypnosis session with TheCigarBoss and the next day was the start of that whole massively infected cat bite fiasco. Then starting my new job and all that stress. When I got back in touch with TheCigarBoss he never replied. I tried a couple times but got dead air.

I'll say hello to Flipnotist and will see if we click.

My first choice would of course be you doing it all for me and occasionally setting me up with other hypnotists you feel would enhance what you and I build together. And I'd grow myself into a roided-out, freaky swole, heavily tattooed, siliconed monster cock greybeard beast who would deny you no emotional or physical pleasures.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Remember that 22 year old I mentioned?
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 16:46:49 +0100
To: YANK

I did not. I have been meaning of see that film for quite some time.

You know when you were asking about builds? If I could look as solid as him, that's the sort of thing I'd love. But I suspect I'd just have a massive apron instead.
Subject: Re: Spirals? Yes, we have spirals
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 16:48:48 +0100
To: YANK

I only know of him, and I'm sure we might say hello but won't end up besties :)

I'll be interested to see what works best for you.
Subject: Re: Remember that 22 year old I mentioned?
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 08:52:31 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Although he's beefy, he does not yet have a build. It takes a plan to get a build.

You will be solid, heavy, well proportioned, and BIG. Just need to get you underway with a more musclehead-positive lifestyle and training plan to get you there.

Find a dealer for genuine steroids and I'll get you built like Sajaad Gharibi in no time. Well, in years, but fun years.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Bandanna to flag hypnosis?
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 16:53:45 +0100
To: YANK

Spirals, tunnels and pocket watches are the obvious choices that others will understand most. I guess that's what the hankies are for in the end.

I've been tempted to get a pocket watch actually. I've avoided tropes mostly, but there some amazingly sexy ones with exposed gears and stuff that really tempt me :)
Subject: Re: Bandanna to flag hypnosis?
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 08:56:46 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Tropes are fun if you're not a fanboy. Cigars and posing trunks are tropes for me.

I'll see what bandannas I can find and/or make.

ook ook.
Subject: Today's Skype may be delayed due to a kitten
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 09:00:46 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

Last night I got a phone call from Janea about the recently adopted kitten Jack.

One of Jack's eyes is watery. The children said "He's crying". Although it's clear tears and therefore likely just an environmental irritant, I agreed to take Janea and Jack for a veterinarian visit. If the only vet I know with Sunday office hours can see us. Otherwise it'll be Monday after work.

I'm waiting to hear from Janea as to whether Jack's eye has changed any.

No ooks for crying kittens,

Yank
Subject: Re: Today's Skype may be delayed due to a kitten
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 17:20:01 +0100
To: YANK

Of course. Hope he's OK.
Subject: Re: Bandanna to flag hypnosis?
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 17:21:22 +0100
To: YANK

I know. I think it's a pattern of overreaction before acceptance. I get enough stick about hypnosis without the usual tropes.

I will admit I own a shit plastic "crystal" somewhere :D
Subject: Re: Today's Skype may be delayed due to a kitten
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 09:21:44 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

I'm sure it's a minor passing discomfort for Jack. But I'd like the humans to be comfortable too.

May I voice call you? Does that cost you anything?

--Yank
Subject: Re: Bandanna to flag hypnosis?
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 09:23:40 -0700
To: BRIT

PLASTIC?!?! The homeopathic holistic crystal Reiki healers will have your balls for such blasphemy!
Subject: Re: Today's Skype may be delayed due to a kitten
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 17:34:46 +0100
To: YANK

It won't cost me anything to receive it.
Subject: Re: Bandanna to flag hypnosis?
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 17:36:19 +0100
To: YANK

That's kind of the fun of it. You won't believe how amusing it is driving a brown Honda Civic and having people react to that. It's just a car. But it's so much less to so many ;)
Subject: Photos to show your friends
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 14:04:51 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

You are welcome to show any of the attached photos of me to your friends who are curious.

Also, the "I still want you bigger" posting is belog.

ook ook,

BIG LUG

--------- MUSCLE GROWTH PROJECT ----------

You're home from your evening workout at the gym. I finish up your stretching and deep tissue work. You should be relaxed but I carefully teased your immense body to bring you to powerful sexual arousal, your cock throbbing, thick, firm, and drooling.

I help you off the table and waddle your naked hulking body to the filling station. It's a modified medical chair. You settle in, lean back, and out of habit you position your arms and legs in the restraints for me. I strap you in. You're not going anywhere until I'm done filling you.

I pull down the gallon jug of mass builder protein shake. It's on a retractable cord so it hangs over your face, and the jug has a calf-nursing teat on it. I slide the teat into your mouth and you nurse happily on your muscle builder. Your belly starts to fill and swell.

I lube up your enormous cock pull down the milker, the vacuum pulls it onto your cock down to the base and it begins sucking. And sucking. And sucking... Right now I have it set on slow, enough to tease you and edge you but not enough that you can cum. You don't cum unless I let you cum. Ever.

You whimper, so happy, so big, so aroused. But I want you BIGGER.

I fill syringes with part of your steroid dosage and inject each of your thighs. Then site injections in your pecs. They've grown impossibly thick and bulging.

But I want you BIGGER.

You whimper, so happy, so big, so aroused, your roid gut bloating more and more as your belly fills with your muscle builder shake. You suck on the jug's teat like it's a cock that owes you more cum.

But I want you BIGGER.

I fill huge syringes with synthol and proceed with your site injections. Your calves. Your quads. Your glutes. Biceps. Triceps. Delts, Traps, finally your pecs. I've forced about a liter of SIZE into your muscles, they're swollen and bulging. You look down at your colossal muscles and tremble, you're looking at the thickest, most swole, most MASSIVE muscle brute ever and you know that it's YOU.

But I want you BIGGER.

You whimper, so happy, so big, so MASSIVE, so aroused, so swollen, so bloated, your roid gut bulging like a watermelon as you suck the last of your muscle builder shake into your roidbelly.

Time to reward you for growing for me. I slowly inch up the power on the milking machine. You start to squirm, your ENORMOUS swollen muscles twitching and flexing as the milker sucks you HARDER and FASTER. But still not enough to force out your load. You look me in the eye and mumble, "Please, Papa... Please let me cum, Papa... Please..."

I gently rub your huge, bloated, bulging, protein-filled belly. "Will you keep growing for me, my Beast? Will you grow even BIGGER and make your Papa happy?"

Your eyes are wild and you stutter, "Yes, Papa, I'll grow... I'll grow... Please Papa, let me cum, I'll get bigger! I swear! I'll grow for Papa! I'll grow! I... I..."

I turn the milker up strong enough to finish you off. Your musclebound body heaves and thrashes in the restraints as the milker drains you. You feel your cum pulled violently from your nuts, spurt after spurt after spurt, it's relentless. You rip free of an arm restraint but still the forced draining continues. Eventually your cum slows and stops. You're empty. Drained.

I pull the milker off your exhausted cock and remove the feeder from your mouth. I free you from your restraints but you're too exhausted to move. I kiss you on the mouth, licking off some of the protein shake from your lips. "Good Beast," I tell you, "You make Papa very happy." You smile, so happy, so grateful.

But I still want you BIGGER.

---------- END ----------

[Attachments redacted]

Subject: A H4G you might be interested in ...
From: BRIT
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 22:16:52 +0100
To: YANK

https://hypnosisforguys.com/[Redacted]

I was the first person to get a working post hypnotic suggestion in with this guy, which swelled my ego ;) Unfortunately, we have time zone clash. I played a few times when I got up really early, but then I fixed my sleep a bit and we didn't play again.

He's definitely got a lot of your mindset. He's learning to be a hypnotist too. You guys might enjoy each other in some way :)

Poppa
Subject: Things you already knew
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 16:23:52 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

I took the HypnoKink quiz on IMGUR. I attached my results which will not surprise you at all.

Quizzically yours,

a) Geromino! b) Allonz-y! c) ook ook d) all of the above e) none of the above

BIG LUG


Subject: These spirals work well for me
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 17:16:04 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

These spirals work well for me. They hit my temporal lobe weirdness right on the target, and they use the visual clues I use to interpret 3D.

I did test runs with the Always Hard and Exhibitionist settings. Of course.

Alternating Dots https://hypno.nimja.com/visual/79?color=808080&set=default-hard-showoff&t=s19

Torus Spiral https://hypno.nimja.com/visual/17?color=808080&set=default-hard-showoff&t=s19

Escheresque https://hypno.nimja.com/visual/21?color=808080&set=default-hard-showoff&t=s19

Please use your choice of phrases that you think would be effective for our mutual goals. I already tried "Feeling Poppa's big cock growing bigger and bigger in your mouth makes you feel safe and happy" but it doesn't fit. Perhaps you can reword it.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Home from the gym
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 19:52:28 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

I completed Day 1 of the MuscleMag workout cycle. 27 sets of chest, triceps, legs, and abs.

There were some BIG thick young musclemen there. I made an effort to give them compliments on their physiques. Afterwards they'd show off a little more when I gave them a good long look.

I wore short but not body hugging stretchy shorts. No complaints. A few guys were wearing tights (now called "compression shorts") so I was on safe ground.

I feel good. I'm looking forward to getting big and feeling you use my body and mind however you want, whenever you want.

ook hard-on ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Could that be better expressed in Tamil?
From: YANK
Date: Sun, 29 Jul 2018 20:34:49 -0700
To: BRIT

நான் என் பெரிய தசை உடல் பயன்படுத்த வேண்டும் மற்றும் என் மனதில் எனினும் நீங்கள் விரும்பும் மற்றும் எப்போது வேண்டுமானாலும் வேண்டும்.

ook ook,

YOUR BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Could that be better expressed in Tamil?
From: BRIT
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 05:26:25 +0100
To: YANK

And I had to use Google translate to read it :D

Appreciate the thought you big lug. Let's turn you into a muscle beast!
Subject: Re: Home from the gym
From: BRIT
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 05:41:06 +0100
To: YANK

I'm very pleased to hear it.

Im hoping you'll feel that good ache, and get a buzz from knowing you're growing again.

Get bigger, you big lug. Get huge. Get monstrous.
Subject: Re: Photos to show your friends
From: BRIT
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 05:46:41 +0100
To: YANK

Your before pic is so motivating. I've seen one before but the reminder is very helpful.

When I was with you, I couldn't help but admire your thickness, which looked so right on you. I'd never have thought you started so slim if not shown.

The way your legs and glutes look so solid and the width of your shoulders were probably my favourites to see.

Hugging you tight was my favourite of all.
Subject: Re: Could that be better expressed in Tamil?
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 05:58:05 -0700
To: BRIT

Hey, fair is fair, I had to use Google Translate to write it.

I'll have to add to the list: Not safe, not sane, not normal, and definitely not small.

ook ook.
Subject: Re: Photos to show your friends
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 06:04:36 -0700
To: BRIT

I've never felt I was very thick although I do like my proportions otherwise. My legs grow pretty well so I'll be putting extra effort into back and pecs, and extra synthol in my pecs.

Hug me, Poppa. Hug me tight. And if you can't resist crushing me into trance... well, these things happen.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: Home from the gym
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 06:07:15 -0700
To: BRIT

Back on track, Poppa. Goal photo attached.

ook ook,

BIG LUG

Subject: Re: Home from the gym
From: BRIT
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 15:13:13 +0100
To: YANK

That's a start ...
Subject: Re: paul_clinton_hypno.zip
From: BRIT
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 15:15:05 +0100
To: YANK

This looks incredibly handy. I shamelessly steal ideas for inductions and deepeners :D good gorilla!
Subject: Fwd: A H4G you might be interested in ...
From: BRIT
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 15:16:57 +0100
To: YANK

I ended up waking up too early today, which was bad, but I got to speak to this guy again and talked a little about you. He's learning to be a tist, you are already switchy, I think it could be great!

Subject: Re: paul_clinton_hypno.zip
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 08:10:48 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit HAPPY MAN! GRUNTOR HAPPY GORILLA!

I rather like the "boot camp" induction. It has elements of indoctrination.

ook ook.
Subject: Re: A H4G you might be interested in ...
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 08:14:20 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

We exchanged Skype contacts. He's in [Redacted], Michigan, USA and it's 3 hours later there. But if you and I can align our times for hypnosis then so can [Redacted] and I.

I'm going to brush up my hypnotist skills. I'm also considering some of the hypnotist training courses available in [Redacted]. I should be versatile in my hypnosis roles and it may help me meet other mind-kink pervs.

ook ook.
Subject: Re: Home from the gym
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 08:15:17 -0700
To: BRIT

Yeah, that's a photo from BEFORE you construct a filling station for me.

ook ook.
Subject: Side-laced leather pants
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 08:55:24 -0700
To: BRIT

Brit,

https://www.ebay.com/i/121112163963?chn=ps&var=420140921818

I don't know why but I suspect you would like this style of leather pants.

ook ook.
Subject: This is how I want to be built
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 20:12:54 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

According to the Tumble page I got this photo from, this guy is in his 50's.

That's how I want to be built. Built for sex.

Please indicate your approval by getting an erection.

ook ook,

BIG LUG


Subject: Re: This is how I want to be built
From: BRIT
Date: Tue, 31 Jul 2018 04:17:21 +0100
To: YANK

Erection attained.

He is just slab after slab of synthol stuffed meat.
Subject: Re: This is how I want to be built
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 21:05:36 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

Doesn't look like synthol to me, more like what's called a "water buffalo". Lots of steroid muscle, lots of steroid bloat.

I like that. I want that.

ook ook,

BIG LUG
Subject: Re: This is how I want to be built
From: BRIT
Date: Tue, 31 Jul 2018 05:06:56 +0100
To: YANK

Really? I didn't realise meat could get to look like that :O
Subject: Re: This is how I want to be built
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 21:08:34 -0700
To: BRIT

Oh yes, all that MEAT and more.

What are you doing up before dawn?

ook ook.
Subject: Re: This is how I want to be built
From: BRIT
Date: Tue, 31 Jul 2018 05:11:24 +0100
To: YANK

I'm back to my usual UK timezone based pattern of poor sleep :( woke up hungry because I misjudged the amount I needed to eat yesterday. I think my head wants to lose weight so reducing intake, but seemingly too much.
Subject: My evening was consumed by a hypochondriac with a kitten
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 21:12:37 -0700
To: BRIT

Poppa,

On my way home from work I got a call from Janea, the woman who adopted Jack. She was freaking out about his watery eye again and she wanted a veterinarian visit.

The vet said Jack was fine but prescribed 10 days of antibiotics just in case.

4 hours later I got home. Smokes a little cigar. Inside now trying to relax and eat.

Ugh.

ook ook,

Tired Man
Subject: Re: This is how I want to be built
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 21:14:32 -0700
To: BRIT

The offer to live together and share our expertise with each other still stands. Impractical as it seems at the moment.

[Redacted] and I are discussing doing hypnosis together.

ook ook.
Subject: Re: My evening was consumed by a hypochondriac with a kitten
From: BRIT
Date: Tue, 31 Jul 2018 05:17:57 +0100
To: YANK

Better she is too concerned than too little. Perhaps she just has not had many cats and doesn't know the range of what is OK yet.
Subject: Re: My evening was consumed by a hypochondriac with a kitten
From: YANK
Date: Mon, 30 Jul 2018 21:19:04 -0700
To: BRIT

She said she'd just feeling so attached and motherly. You're right, I can't fault her that.

ook ook.
Subject: InspiRobot
From: YANK
Date: Tue, 31 Jul 2018 17:59:17 -0700
To: BRIT

http://inspirobot.me

Brit,

InspiRobot uses machine learning to dissect language worthy of a workplace motivational poster and spit it out sounding much, much better.

Here are two of my favorites.

ook ook,

BIG LUG